I don’t want to face any of my problems. It seems too hard!
I just want to ignore my problems as hard as I can and hope they’ll go away. I’m pretty good at ignoring them and doing nothing instead.
But doing nothing isn’t easy either. Sure, it sounds easy. But it isn’t easy for me. It’s almost as hard as doing something. But not quite.
Yet I’ve gotten so good at ignoring my problems, so comfortable at being discontented, it is SCARY to think about another way of life.
I hate being responsible! I don’t want to be responsible for anything!
But I have to be responsible for myself because nobody else is gonna do it. And ignoring my problems isn’t making them go away.
So while trying not to be responsible for anything, I end up being totally responsible for my own unhappiness.
It’s so obvious I could just puke.
I swear to “god” I’m gonna do something about it one of these days.